When I was 11 years old I started journaling. I kept a diary with all my secret thoughts from the world. I used writing as an outlet to express myself. I’m an introvert and the best way to express myself is through writing. At the end of my toughest season, I began journaling again.
While cleaning last weekend I came across the journal, and I believe the Lord is leading me to share my thoughts with someone. Someone needs to read the thoughts of my agony, frustration, anger, hurt, and revolt. All of which helped grow my faith. My faith encouraged and led me out of my last season. It’s by faith in God I was able to breakthrough from my situation and NOT breakdown. It’s during my last season; I realized how powerful the declarations of my words were. I’m not kidding when I say, “I’M JUST A GIRL LIVING BY FAITH.” It is my lifestyle. The mentality I developed in my last season has grown tremendously, and today I see tangible evidence of my faith.When we know our 'why,' we start living as who God called us to be.Click To Tweet
So for this month of April (only) in honor of the Resurrection of Jesus Christ, I’m kicking off my “Journal Chronicles Series,” Wednesday. I’ll share a journal entry from the pages of my journal. The first entry I wrote to myself “Why were you born?” This entry was the turning point in my season. I needed to find out my ‘why.’ When we know our ‘ why,’ we start living as who God called us to be. In the first page of my journal, I started out ministering to myself.
God said in Jeremiah 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you,” which means before I was born He knew me. Before I was a thought in my parent’s mind, He knew me. I was with Him; He already knew who and what He called me to be before sending me into this world.
However, when I came into this world, I was contaminated by the challenges of life. Like the hurt and trials of life. The heartbreaks, abuse, rebellion, resentment, rejection, etc. Therefore, when I went through these things, it began to shape and mold me into someone I am not. Someone God did not call me to be.When I find out who I am in Christ Jesus, I will know MY purpose!Click To Tweet
I began to develop resentment, hate and other bad habits because of the way life treated me. Oh, what a crappy hand I was dealt. It was never God’s intention for me to go through life like this, but circumstances happened. This is not who I am. It’s not who God created me to be. I need to find out who God has called ME to be. When I find out who I am in Christ Jesus, I will know MY purpose!
My Conclusion today:
You would never believe, this first short entry helped me to let go of all the hurt and anger I felt in life. I felt abandon by others. People who I was there for when I needed their support no one came to my aide. The same people turned around to slander my name. They went to great length to make sure I would never rise again. But the Lord said, “the same spirit that raise Jesus from the dead, lives in me today.” The same resurrection power would lift my head above my enemies. The stone the builder refused would become the head cornerstone. For a very long time, I thought I would never be able to let go of the anger and hurt I felt. I thought this is me, people are either going to like it or leave it. YES, even as a Christian saved for five years, I battled with letting go of the old man I struggled in walking in the new man. The new creature. I think there is a misconception among Christians after receiving salvation. We believe as soon as we accept Jesus automatically those ways and habits we picked up while in the world goes away. Some do, but we also have strongholds we need to get rid of as well. We have to get rid of the carnal mind, learning to surrender and walking in obedience. We rebelled for so long while we were in the world. It takes times to subdue our flesh and allow the spirit man to rule and reign in us.
I rebelled for 22 years; I was away from Christ. I was conceived in sin. I grew up in sin. Now I have been born again. I NEEDED to shed layers of all the ways and habits of the world. I have not entirely shed all of my layers, but I’ve come a long way. God is not through with me, and He who started a good work in me will continue it until the day of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ returns (Philippians 1:6).
What outlet (hobby) do you use as a way to encourage yourself or take your mind off of things?
Did you enjoy this post? Share it with someone. You never know what a person might be going through. An act as simple as sharing a post can be a blessing in their lives.
Until next time God Bless you richly for reading 🙂
The continuation of this series will pick up next Wednesday.