This past Saturday as I laid in bed reflecting, wrestling with my emotions and thoughts. I had such a stressful week at work amongst dealing with my personal life. I just laid there in bed for about an hour meditating. While I laid there I got a text from my Sunday school leader. She didn’t say anything, it was just a scripture verse Isaiah 41;13-14,
For I hold you by your right hand—
I, the Lord your God.
And I say to you,
‘Don’t be afraid. I am here to help you.
14 Though you are a lowly worm, O Jacob,
don’t be afraid, people of Israel, for I will help you.
I am the Lord, your Redeemer.
I am the Holy One of Israel.’
Now, I don’t really talk about my problems or things I struggle with to others. I tend to deal with everything in prayer and trust God to do the rest. I take everything to Him in prayer. Friend, this scripture was so timely for my situation. But it was a reminder to me where He brought me from. I stood on this scripture during my last season. Let’s rewind to a conversation I had with the Lord Friday night. I left work frustrated because of all the stress I was under throughout the week and on top of a personal dilemma, I was dealing with. You put those two things together and I was ready to huff, puff and blow something down. There was too much happening all at once.
So when I got into my car to head to church, I uttered these words out of frustration, “God, I can’t. I just can’t do this anymore! ” I had reached a boiling point. Like I felt as though I was under so much pressure and carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. BUT in the spirit, I heard you can! I quickly changed my confession to, ” I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me.” Sometimes I try to do things on my own and He desires to do it for me. He desires to carry the load for me. He doesn’t want me stressing about things I have no control over. He wants me to give everything to Him because He makes everything beautiful in His timing.
God is able
When I walked through the doors of my church, I heard the choir singing the song, “God is able.”
I was like yes, Lord, YOU are able! What a timely reminder it was for me. I don’t know what you might be going through right now, but God is able. Sometimes you may forget in moments of weakness. Your emotions often get’s the best of you. But you can’t remain there when you know what the Word says. Don’t remain in your emotions, but cast all of your cares to Him for He cares for you. The Lord cares about the battles you face daily. Whatever burden you’re carrying, He desires to take the load from you.
Friend, living for Christ requires a lot of sacrifices. Dying to our flesh daily. Sometimes even our wants. But we’re reminded of the Word of God, in Matthew 19:29, “Whatever you give up for His namesake, you’ll receive back 100 folds.” You won’t always get your way, but know God has reserved the BEST for His children. He will NEVER withhold anything good from you. He never says, “no” to us. It’s yes or amen. And even if you have taken a step of faith and it does not work out in your favor, know God’s timing is perfect. He knows what you can and cannot handle. So be patient, in a little while you will have your answered prayer. But in the meantime, as you wait God desires to help you through whatever you’re facing today. Whatever it is you’re wrestling with God is able to give you rest from it.
For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us. 2 Corinthians 1:20
God will help you
Can I be transparent with you real quick friend? I’ve walked through some tough seasons in my life where it was only me and the Lord I could never forget my last season. It was painful and I will always reflect on it because God used it to shape me and stretch my faith. From 2013 to 2016 I felt like I was in the wilderness. It all started with the death of a loved one and everything went downhill. When I needed “man” they were nowhere to be found. All of my help came from the Lord. He provided for me when I had nothing. When I was weak He strengthened me. When I needed to be comforted He wrapped His arms around me. There is no God like our God. He has helped me through so much.
During my last season, I was so tempted to give up. I was depressed because at times I did not know when the Lord was going to show up in my situation. My pastor always says, “when God steps in it is over.” It means you can be going through things and the minute God steps in that’s it. The situation is over. He turns your mourning into joy and your groaning into songs of praise.
I want you to know He does help if you allow Him to. You don’t have to carry the burdens of life on your own. God ransomed Jesus over 2,000 years ago for the burdens you’re struggling to carry right now. Jesus went to the cross so you would not have to carry it. Give it to Him. Don’t be afraid to speak to your burdens about what Jesus did on the cross for you. I don’t care how old your problem is or what it looks like. Tell your problems about your God. As believers, every problem we face has a name or an ear. Jesus would not have told you to speak to the mountain if the mountain did not have ears. He said, “if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you, Matthew 17:20.” There is nothing impossible for you. There is nothing God cannot do for you. Yes, it may take some time but what doesn’t take time? Anything good will always take time.
Like me, I want you to stop saying “I can’t,” when things are tough. You can always go one more round. My last season was like a boxing match. I felt like I was in a boxing ring with the enemy and the Lord was my coach. And even though I had the Lord of hosts backing me, I felt like the underdog. There were days it felt like I wasn’t going to make it. I took some hard blows from the enemy but I kept fighting. I almost got KO (knockout) a few times, the keyword is “almost,” but I did not. I took those blows and I’m glad I did. Because the scars I have today is a symbol of my strength and willpower. Friend, I don’t know how else to explain it but there was something inside of me (Holy Spirit) giving me the strength beyond my own strength to fight one more round. Every day I woke up I kept hearing go one more day. One more day turned into one more week and one more year and then FINALLY, He showed up.
I realized a long time ago the way my faith is set up, defeat is not an option for me. I may feel helpless at times but I never stay down for long. I can’t stay down, the Lord did not build me up all these years to stay down. Sometimes being strong can be painful because you always have to be strong. But when all you have ever known your whole life was to be strong, you can’t do anything less than what you have known. You can always get stronger but NEVER weaker. I know I will see the promises of God manifest in my life. I have prayed to get to where I am today. So I take comfort in knowing those prayers I have prayed today will bring me to the place I desire to be. I will find myself in a different place next year and the year after and so forth.
My sweet friend, I say all this to encourage you in the Lord. God did not invest in you for you to give up when things don’t go your way. In fact when things do not go as you expected it to allow it to draw you closer to God not away from Him. Its when you ask Him for help. Ask Him to strengthen you. Ask Him to uphold you with His righteous hand. And you rest because you believe all things are working together for your good. Don’t get upset with Him. Don’t throw tantrums with God. As I write this post I realize that was me some time ago. In the past when things did not go my way, I would throw tantrums with God. I would get upset and question Him. As if I knew more than Him. But this weekend I spent time with Him. I worshipped Him for who He is. Because it’s not my will but THY will be done. Cheers to GROWTH my dear friend!